Sunday 23 March 2014

Changing seasons, moods and memories

I have finally discovered that it is possible to let go of memories -- to stop wallowing in them whenever an opportunity presents itself in the form of a song, a film, a smell and so on. Quite often when a particular song is played on the radio or television, the trick is to hum along without any thought of the past. I have started following this technique by listening to the song only as a song that I enjoy listening to rather than thinking of people, situations and emotions. It is easier said than done but not quite difficult. The human mind is capable of adapting itself and when an individual decides to consciously shut off memories, it is possible. With practice and determination, it is not an invincible exercise.

I also discovered that memories and seasons are linked inextricably. Changes in seasons bring about changes in moods and associated emotions. Though summer reminds one of long and languid vacations spent idly dreaming of school and friends, the constant perspiration wipes off all beautiful memories forcing one to stay focussed on the present. While a visit to Chennai in October evoked tender emotions writ large with yearning for one's home, the present visit makes me want to run away from Chennai. Whenever I sweat, I also emit the emotions that made me dislike this city in the first place. It is but natural that as I emit negative emotions, I purge myself but in this particular state, the more I emit, the more I grow irritable and morose. The city love has given way to city loathe, which is almsot like wanting to escape the boundaries set by parents to a life of freedom, only to realise that the freedome one so earnestly craved for was better off being explored within boundaries. Well, for now, I want to run away from Chennai but knowing fully well that in October, I will change my tune.

That said and done, there are some sights and sounds that seasons cannot fade. For example, the jacaranda and canna blooms that line the Mount Road are a treat that presents itself only during the summer months and so are the green-red water melons stretches that dot the road sides. The usual balmy morning and evening summer breeze, the clear blue skies and the summer goodies like buttermilk, vathal, kirni pazham are delights that make this time pleasant and lovely.

Coming back to memories, I think that they burden the self and rob the joy from the present. Limited doses at specific times is permissible but living with them is hazardous, I reckon.

Do your moods alter with changing seasons? 

7 comments:

  1. Yes, Susan - the weather and the changing seasons definitely do play a part in the way we think and act :)

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  2. Hey, I think so too! I am getting irritated easily nowadays...well for the past week or so! Nowadays, summer starts very late here, in Chennai. Mosquitoes will be less in summer!

    Music makes me become a positive person, I have noticed. All the tension leaves me as soon as I hear a good melodious song and I start humming and all the negative thoughts are gone!

    Good to know that you might like Chennai in October!

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    1. The heat gets on to our head, Sandhya and the sweat makes it even terrible. Only the shade of the home sustains me but soon I will be off to Goa :)

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  3. Seasons do influence.. but when you talked about the blooms.. I thought for a moment it would be those yellow flowers on trees that line Hyd roads from March to the summers.. first the yellow, then the purple/lilac ones you mentioned here the one starting with J.. then the orange of the gulmohar.. the best part of all of it is, many a time these trees stand all in one row.. but during their own months.. they bloom and makes the onlooker feel as if they are the only ones present in that row... :) a memory just cropped up here.. :)

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    1. The colours of summer are lovely unlike the heat which spoils it all. Memory!

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  4. i agree with you...seasons and moods are so dependent cause that controls our thoughts.

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